4DEEPTHOUGHTS

this year is special for me and sad at the same time. I am coming up on a new decade this is the last months of my thirties. When I was twenty I thought that forty would be the magical number that all my life would fall in to place. Not realizing that there were rules I should of followed in my twenties, or that it was steps that I should of took in my thirties to get to what I thought my forties were going to be like. Now that I'm on the last stretch of thirty what I thought I probably should not have thought that. Not saying that I regret the person that I am cause I don't. However there are some things that I want to change such as way of thinking, how I allow people to treat me and how I treat others. There are steps to everything that we want to do in life. Nothing worth keeping happens over night we must work for it.  A lot of times people look at change as if it's a bad thing. When change is essential to life. Think about it like this, our age changes every year don&

I hate no one. But I love myself enough to make me not be around people who try make me feel less then. People who are supposed to be family or I thought of you as a real friend. This shit gots to end. I been hurt about this for a long time now. Now that I’m almost 40 I decided to throw in the towel. Wooooooooow I know right 4deep decided to take control of her own life. No longer can control me as a victim its only right. If you truly loved me then it would of shown respect to who I really am. Y’all actions never showed me that I don’t give a damn. Just putting the shit all out so that y'all can know exactly how I feel. This is the last no sugar coat I will give y’all, cause I don’t think Y’all could ever keep it real. To much separation and I’m all about unity. Just unable to understand the disconnect between yall’s and me. Maybe cause I question a lot of things. Y’all be stuck in y’all old ways and I be will to change. Or is it cause all the

Yea that way get the fuck out of my life that way. You did hear what I say. I’m not gone do you today or tomorrow for that matter not even the days after that. I finally came to some conclusions now that I got all the facts. Your not really here for me just her for what I can do for you. For a long time this shit was straight false but I always wanted to see it as true. Wasn’t till I started to broaden my horizons, and saw what the world had to offer and it was way more than I could ever imagine started to see things that were stated on meme were not just captions. Like change your surroundings and watch how much different shit start happening. Or how bout the one that says something like let go of the past so you can hold on to the future. So yea that way get the fuck out of my life that way. That is if your not trying to grow. Cause there are so many things that I want to see and so many places I want to Go. And I want only people who live outs

Do we really look at life through our own eyes. Think about it. Do we go through life doing things that we think will please others or do we do it to please ourselves. That can be a question really hard to answer truthful. Myself included. We go through life worrying about what others might think of us without thinking about if this is what we really are doing. Ask your self this very question, what is the thing that you never want too many people to know about you. You don’t have to say it out loud. That is a part of caring what others think. I sometime envy people that live life so freely seems like they don’t answer to anyone. They live in there truth. I admire people that don’t let their truth. I like the I did it admit it now lets move on type of attitude. I think people that are unapologetic for what they feel they need to do in life are the best. Now I’m not saying those that hurt people in the process but those that live life how they feel they should. I see a lot where people

I didn’t come up with this list I do whole heartily agree with this. These are five things everyone should quit. I am at a cross road in my life where I feel that I’m not young as I made myself believe. I just want and I don’t have more time that's for sure. In fact none of us do. This is just my opinion and some experience on the things that we all most defiantly need to quit. Trying to please everyone: You can never make anyone completely happy I don’t care you are. Who tells you that you do its all a lie. Everyone is different no one thinks the same. We all disagree on one thing or another. That life thats all about being human. Sometimes we do things that we may not like just to please others. That is being selfish to our own selves, you can do something that everyone wants you to do and they still wont be happy with you. When we do something that doesn’t make us happy yet we believe that it will make the other person happy wi

Everyone struggles with something at one point and time in our lives. Some maybe all our lives. Struggles should not always be seen as a bad thing. In fact some of my greatest struggles were blessing for me. Had it not been for some of the things I struggled through I would not be thankful for the things that I have right now. May they be big or small I am thankful for them all the same. I have been through a lot in my life and still are going through things. Me having been through so much I see things for what they really are. I am always questioning things that happen now asking myself Is this and that really worth my time and energy. All because I struggled so long with stressing over things I either had no control of what so ever or that was not even worth me stressing over at all. I have been homeless with my children something I vowed to never be again. I could of gave up a long time ago when I felt like I had no one on earth that I could really trust. That was until I starte